All about Becky …

{17 April 2008}   Cycles and seasons….

Sometimes the highs and lows in life feel like a roller-coaster and can be exhausting…right now things are looking good, and if I stay with the roller-coaster analogy a moment longer, I’m definitely on the up bit, which is always nice. Knowing as I do by now that life can never be an endless up, I’m trying to make the most of this phase while it lasts, to remember that there will be ‘downs’ again, and to try and think of it more as cycles and circles, ebbs and flows than ‘ups’ and ‘downs’ which can be such loaded and unappealing terms.

In fact, all of life is so valuable, and the down times invariably bring their teachings and lessons, without which we would not grow or change. It’s tempting to long for a reality where things are always peachy, but it’s unrealistic and naive to think like that too much…

So what I’m trying to do is to make the most of the wonderful things that are happening in my life at the moment (beautiful, tender, loving, exciting things…sigh) and to try and stay present in each moment, as each moment of ‘now-ness’ is in fact all we ever have, isn’t it? (Eckhart Tolle has written at least two books about this point, so it must be true…)

So trying not to use analyses and judgements of my situation that are based on other people’s opinions, notions of time, expectation or fear I am jumping into these ‘now’ moments enthusiastically, trusting and believing that for once my intuition has got it right, that I can trust my own feelings and follow my heart, and that doing what feels right for me has got to be the best (and only) thing to do…

Open heart, open mind, innocence, trust and faith…I’m glad these things come naturally to me. I don’t ever want to be cynical, bitter, suspicious or too emotionally cautious. Life is for living, not observing, and I’d rather risk getting my fingers burnt and encountering more pain than sit on the sidelines, never deeply involving myself in things and letting life pass me by.

I came across a wishing well today, and didn’t have to think twice about my wish. It was a wonderful moment, throwing a coin in and sending out my heartfelt request to the (ultimately benevolent, I believe) universe.


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